~Freedom Weeks~

Ah...my two weeks of freedom...are to me like popcorn and chocolate! I decided I should maybe probably give you a bit of information on my two weeks of freedom....so you don't think I am always whining or whatever.

So far I have had four treatments. This Monday (April 22) I will have the 5 hour nasty treatment that will knock me down for about 3 or 4 days...the positive is that Resurrection Sunday will be a good day! Then the following Monday (April 29) I will have the 2 hour tolerable treatment...then 2 more weeks of freedom. Sometime during those two weeks the plan is to have another PET scan to see what all is going on with my treatments.

Okay...YES! I have been loving my weeks of freedom. It seems I try to cram too much into the weeks though since time is limited. Being the type of person that I am, sometimes it overwhelms my mind but ultimately I am fine with it all. I do enjoy my times of being a hermit...I must admit...and if you know me at all you understand. 

I enjoyed having my sister and brother-in-law stay with us. I hadn't seen them in two years! That's way too long for not seeing family! We enjoyed our time together and just gabbing and being sisters! (smile) 

I also got to be with my son and his wife! I always enjoy that time and we plan to be together this Sunday also! 

Sometimes during my free weeks I simply sit back and thank Father that I have a breather...time to simply sit back and enjoy life. Sometimes, I get a sudden burst of mental energy and just come up with something daffy/silly just because!

In all honesty, I like to forget that I have cancer. During the two weeks of freedom I do my best to push it out of my mind. It is all too real during the chemo treatment weeks. My free weeks are just that....FREE...Free to clear my mind as best I can...Free to forget cancer...I prefer to go about my life during my two free weeks not even talking about it.

I do understand that people care and people want to know how I am doing...but in all sincerity, I don't want to talk about it. I do it to be polite because as I said I know people care. What I really want to say when asked about my cancer is, "can't we talk about politics?" HAHAHAHAHA! That is so far from the truth. But I'd rather talk about politics during my free week than cancer...so THAT there tells you how much I don't want to talk about the cancer. (smiles). When I am asked about my cancer, I KNOW the person inquiring sincerely cares but as I said, not a topic I want to be on. To be honest, when asked, my head moans inside and says, "we have to talk about this again?" 

Jesus gave me words...two of them were Life and Truth! I want to focus on LIFE! I want to focus on how to be a better Jesus follower! I want to focus on other people and things they are dealing with! I want to focus on God's Word! Do you see what I am saying here? I want to focus on POSITIVE! I want to crank my music up in my house and sing and maybe even dance (I have no rhythm) and enjoy! I want to write! 

Life goes to quickly to be dragged down by the negatives. Oh, I need to tell you...I am loving that so far anyone who has seen me in one of my hats treats me the same as any other individual! I love that! Of course they know I am bald but they just smile and gab...I am talking about  people in stores...restaurants...etc...sure those who know me  ignore it or admire a hat or wig which is fine...but no one is downcast when they look at me....when I had cancer a few years ago...I used to get these "looks" from people who didn't know me. So, I am thankful that people accept my baldness hiding under a hat or wig! (grins)

Okay, so I hope I didn't hurt anyone's feelings as they read me here. That is never my intent. I just want you all to know that I am about living! I am about living my best as a Jesus follower! I am about not focusing on me! That almost sounded oxy-moron-ish (laughs inside her head)...me saying all of this "I" stuff...you know what I am saying though! 

My mind has always been on that escapes into my own reality...and I like it there! So, know that I never intend to hurt your feelings...I merely want to enjoy LIVING! I appreciate your prayers, encouragement, and concern.