~Negative Schmegative~

My body got a little messed up...I had that best worst week...then a week off due to Memorial Day (cause my treatments are on Mondays)...then had a treatment two weeks ago...usually I have the worst week...then the more tolerable week...then the two free weeks...so during the more tolerable week my body is still getting rid of the worst week stuff...but this time during a free week it was still getting rid of the worst week stuff...then last week during the first part of the week I was still getting rid of the tolerable stuff...SO now I am into a for real free week...and will enjoy it before treatment this coming Monday of the worst stuff...sheesh! 

I know that negative thoughts or issues are not good for me...I pray away any negative thoughts...and I pray about what to do regarding negative issues...I believe I have said before that I have a Facebook account and if I see that a post is leaning in the negatives...I avoid it an move on...honestly and tritely, Life is too Short for negative stuff. I won't deal with it if I can help it at all. 

I keep informed of world, country, and state events but I don't let them absorb into my innermost being...that isn't healthy...my body has enough foreign and icky stuff absorbing into it (haha)...I don't need outside negative sources.

I enjoy the posts on Facebook that are of good humor...positive...bring a smile...I avoid any whining...negative...messing with my peace type stuff...

I am not sure anymore if it is my chemo brain or who I am or a little of both, but I don't have space in my mind for much that doesn't bring peace or joy. I also am not sure if I have become more blunt due to the stuff going through  my body...if it is old age...or if it is simply who I am now...or a combination...and you know what? It doesn't really matter which it is...cause I am more blunt here in writing...I get tired of a lot of things that simply seem of little need to be known or negative.

My mind and soul craves to dwell on communicating with Father...learning more scripture...being passionate for the Three...Father, Jesus, and the Holy Spirit...and being that soul on fire who is genuine and wants to shine Jesus...Those things are what is important to me and my aim is to live them until the Trumpet of Jesus sounds or my angel escorts me off to the heavenly realms.

With all that I am going through...all that I have gone through even since 2011 and my brain tumor...but especially now since this newest cancer...I have learned not to give time to so many things...to focus on the relevant...the truly important! 

I love life! I love peace! I love joy! I love the fire that flames inside me! 

The fire inside me...it is so alive! I want others to know it...to experience it...to claim it...but I also know that the Holy Spirit ministers to all of us as He sees our needs...sees what is relevant for each of us...but I just get so giddy in my head at times knowing how He is with me...and how I am with Him...I know they are Three in One...but...He is the one who counsels, guides, helps in my actions and speech when I pay attention to Him...He and I communicate and I smile on the inside.

With Him dwelling in me...you can see now why I have no space for negatives...oh and you see...I am learning, through the Three, to have proper focus...cancer and treatment dates won't consume me...with the help of the Three my focus is on growing in Jesus...being a passionate Jesus follower...reading the scriptures...the words He gave me...Trust & Hope and Life and Truth! What better things to focus on!!!